Looking back, I thought I was so in love, maybe I wasn't in love, maybe I was just in love with the idea of love. There are a lot of things I look back at in regards to my marriage, things I wonder if I could have done differently, or better but in the end I have learned, I didn't choose for him to abuse me, I didn't ask for him to and even when I tried to "behave" as best as I could, it didn't stop. I have learned that it isn't my fault, even though I have difficulty accepting it at times. I know at the end of the day my decision to leave him was the right one, the safest option for me.
We each have our own self-identified definition of what happiness means and how to achieve it. For some of us we loose what happiness means for us, and eventually loose the ability to achieve it all together. We begin to believe that we don't even deserve to achieve it. We become complacent with living in… Continue reading Finding Happiness
Thoughtful Thursday: Living in Pain Not all scars show. Not all wounds heal. Not all pain can be seen that someone feels. If you read my last blog, you will know that I have Complex Regional Pain Syndrome "CRPS"; I am in a constant pain about 95% of the time. The pain… Continue reading Thoughtful Thursday: Living in Pain
Living with Complex Regional Pain Syndrome **Nate took a moment to snapped a few pictures of me today, of a 2 raw moments when my pain was at a peak of discomfort** A few weeks ago I received a sigh of relief when I finally received a diagnosis for my pain but at the same… Continue reading My Ability is GREATER than my Disability
This post is Dedicated to my loving sweet boyfriend Nathan Shelby Being Single was Exhausting....There are so many books on self help, self love, relationships; plus the plethora of dating sites. How did people date with out them? We have no idea. Then there is every person who think their advice is the best advice.… Continue reading Being Single was Exhausting
What did you first think? A lot of people might look at the first picture of me and place judgement because all they see is a worthless acne faced overweight white girl who isn't capable of anything and is obviously lazy when it is clearly the middle of the day and I am sleeping.… Continue reading Compassion is the least expensive way to begin helping someone heal.
This post is dedicated to my Pop, Robert W. Allen AUG 15 1956 - AUG 19 2015 Have you ever thought about who the constants are in your life, the ones who have been there for you no matter what. The ones that grounded you, made you feel like the person you are, give you… Continue reading Constants