So a thought occured to me today, I don't really post about my use of #Cannabis. At least not on Instagram or Facebook. That's when it dawned on me that even though I discuss it with people on Social Media, well except I do on Snapchat every now and again.
A perfect example is today, I went to my preferred #medicalcannabisdispensary #urbanwellness in the need of replenishing what would in a sense be a #medicalmarijuana "#prescription #refill for the month.
For those who don't know, the #disease I suffer from, my #chronicillness, the cause of my #constant and very #chronicpain is called
With the small possibility of one day going in #remission for 3-4 years max as well as this "remission" isn't quite how you think it would be.
I will not be be "pain free" it means my pain would be "reduced" to more of a pain, that is easier to maintain. Yeah because apparently, there is such a thing as "maintainable pain". So for me, I will be on some form of a pain management regimen for the rest of my life.
I'm 29 years old, I still have so much of a life to live, dreams to achieve, goals to accomplish, adventures to experience. I owe it to myself to make every attempt to live not just be alive, but to actually live. Living in a perpetually revolving labyrinth of with chronic pain, circulating throughout my day; consuming my life. Rendering me chained to my bed, a prisoner in my home.
I don't intend go live my life being held hostage by my disease. I dispose the fact that in order to get out of bed everyday, to actually walk, I have to take opiates and specific nerve pain medication, medications that at some point can cause damaging effects to my kidneys. To make matters worse, those medications hardly put a dent in my pain.
If that means I smoke, eat, drink or ingest Cannabis in anyway to allow myself the luxury of:
*Getting out of Bed *Brush my Hair
*Take a Shower *Make food or even just eat a meal
Yes, I will.
I have a problem with anyone who tries to take my ability to have a happy, dare I say decent quality of life.